once happiness

i was once a happy kid
who lives his life like there is no tomorrow
i was so happy that i always smile and laugh
I'm grateful and also confident
my day always work out for me
but
i dont know since when
i started to doubt myself
i started to lost my color
i found myself clouded by darkness
and become more afraid to move forward
i always remind myself to look out of what people think
think about them before me
i want to see others happy but i forgot mine
now i want to go back to how it is
but the path already closed